It must sound almost plain silly to be writing about every, little detail or thought that comes up concerning this trip, but I do have to ease and remind myself that this is a rather big thing for me no matter what others might think of the situation. I need to let these bottled thoughts out in the most comfortable way I can.

I'd been ringing travel agents for two months already, and that thought of "what if the prices go down? Should I wait to buy the tickets then?" keeps popping up everytime I hear $1500 to $1600 quoted. It's November now. I gave a call yesterday and they quoted me a good fare- but then said that the seats were full for the flight crucial for my arriving in NZ on time. I'm praying God will allow a seat to open up for me, provide some way, or lead me in another direction (i.e. maybe skip the pre-Hearts roadtrip to Christchurch and just fly into Christchurch the day of HA). So this has been the worrisome anticipation of late. With over a year and a half of looking forward to this trip, plus a lot of planning and booking for post-arrival activities, it's going to hurt big time if I don't get to go this year. Please, God, provide a way for me. Thank you, Lord. (see above post)